so i'm sitting here sipping on green tea deciding where to start =/ i haven't a clue...
i have livejournal and now blogger, my lj blog is for the eyes of complete strangers and myself only...kinda weird aye?? thought i'd make this one for my actual friends & people that i know to read :)
so...as you may already know my name is vanessa paige summers (venz to most)
i'm 19...20 in 6 months *looks in horror*
Bipolar Disorder? Borderline Personality Disorder? Obsessive Compulsive Disorder? Manic Depression? Take your pick...
i'm currently at the University of Cumbria (2nd year) in Carlisle (20 minutes down the road from scotland) studying
*BA Joint Honours Dance and Drama Performance*
after graduating in 2 years...my plan is to move to london to do a postgraduate course in dance, whilst doing this i'm hoping to join some acting, dance and modelling agencies to find work and to chase the dream.....*rolls eyes* you're probably reading this rolling your eyes too...but performing arts is all i know & i'm determined to make it somewhere.
i would not be content with my life if i ended up a 30 year old single mother with like 6 kids, living in a council estate in fricking leicester...no thanks...
i hope in ten years time i'm not in leicester, i hope i'm not in england for the matter....
New York or Los Angeles would do me quite well thanks :)
anyway, i'm not going to bore you with stories of how terrible my childhood was,
or what i've been through..*
but what i will say is that i wouldn't be the person i am today if it wasn't because of my past (corny as fuck right?)
i have 2 brothers, no parents and a fuck load of friends
and i wouldn't have it any other way.
my friends are my family :) as well as my brothers of course :P
it's currently 3-15am and i'm wide awake damn insomnia is a bitch...
i really need to get it sorted out before i move back to carlisle/start uni (14 more sleeps :)
i'll be honest i can't wait to move into 221 warwick road carlisle :)
i'll be living with 5 of the most amazing people i've ever met
Kirsteen, Simon, Laura, Lauren & Alastair :)
it's gonna be mental/
i'm ready to move back to carlisle, leicester is pissing me off tbh
the one thing i forgot about leicester is that it's full or drama/gossip & bitchiness
&& the people you thought you could trust just turn around and stab you in the back!
i hate the fact that everybody knows everybody in leicester
everybody know's everybody's business in leicester
everybody has fucked everybody in leicester ¬_¬
it's a love/hate relationship**
i obviously love to come back for the friends/the memories/the nightlife/
but the fakes/haters/bitches & wannabes make me want to spork my own eyes out =/
but the funnest thing is i fucking know, as soon as fresher's fortnight is over and i'm back to actually studying for my degree/paying bills && working...
i'm gonna be on the phone to my best friends ranting on about how much i miss home lol
haha should be a good year though because this year we get to put on shows...FINALLY :)
it kinda sucked because last year we didn't get to hold actual performances on the stage, the only 'performances' we had took place in the rehearsal studios which sucked ass =/
i've gotta start thinking up concepts & shiz for my 3rd dance and drama originals as well.....
oh the stress of being a performing arts student :)
lol well i think i've rambled on enough, so this is it for my 1st post
iloveyouokaythanksbye xo
